in a vegetarian state
so far, the vegetarian-except-for-fish thing is working out for me. when i reeeeeeally want meat, i either (a) have fish instead or (b) have the things that would normally go with meat (thereby tricking myself into thinking i'm having a meat dish). or in the case of this afternoon, when i smelled ten million grills smoking, i (c) had a veggie burger (god bless burger king). i'm not losing any more weight, dangit, but i do feel better, and my rosacea seems to be clearing up - a plus since i've given up makeup since hans died. i did have a pang of regret saturday when we walked into the west side market and i realized i couldn't have an italian sausage sandwich for breakfast; i wish i had added those things to my list of exceptions (fish, argentinean beef) when i started, but it feels like cheating to add to the list now, after the fact.
if nothing else, at least it will be easier to raise a vegetarian kid if i'm not eating big ol' steaks myself. i've never been a big fan of the do-as-i-say, not-as-i-do philosophy.
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i went shopping this afternoon for a dress to wear to two weddings - one in august and one labor day weekend - so i wanted something i could wear to both. the thing is, even though i wasn't exactly svelte pre-hans, i could at least always find something to wear. now, every flaw has been exaggerated. no designer or manufacturer cuts to my bizarre dimensions. i don't have the time to have something custom-made, and i hate to spend that much money on something i'll wear twice. so i sucked it up and tried on dress after dress after dress after dress - it was exhausting. i finally found a silk, two-piece dress that's kind of greek-goddess-y. i actually love the skirt, but the top is...difficult. it's kind of ruffly-drapy and shows far, far more skin than i would normally show. but it will work, and at least my hips and legs will look fabulous, even if my top half is overexposed. it just occurred to me - maybe all that skin will distract people from noticing the less-flattering aspects of the top. well, i can dream, can't i?
why does it have to be soooooo difficult?
*****
have you noticed that i use an obscene number of hyphens? i'm very hyphen-happy. see? i just did it again!
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we are rearranging and reorganizing our bedroom, and we decided to put together a little wall-o-hans in one corner under a dormer. i got coordinating frames for the certificate with his hand and foot prints and some pictures of him, but i'm having trouble figuring out which ink cartridge in my printer is empty. before i realized i had an ink shortage, i also lined up 24 photos to go in a couple of pocket-sized baby photo albums we bought a while back so we could carry a little bit of him with each of us, so none of my photo ambitions are being realized today. i really need something to go right.
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i'm picking up justin from work in a few minutes, and we're going to try to see a little bit of some city's fireworks, but we don't have a good track record. five years ago today, we were in a plane flying from new york to jacksonville and watched the fireworks display of every city along the east coast from overhead, but it's been downhill from there. the next year, we spent the evening trying to find a ladder tall enough to reach the roof of the entry way of his old condo to retrieve his car keys which i had thrown on to the roof in a fit of anger (i really meant to toss them to justin, honest - the anger just caused my throw to be a little wild). last year on the fourth, only we knew we were pregnant, a thought i hugged to me as i watched the fireworks in public square with greg and dyan - while justin sat stuck on the train trying to get to us, which he did about 20 minutes after the fireworks were over. wish us luck tonight - we'll need it.
if nothing else, at least it will be easier to raise a vegetarian kid if i'm not eating big ol' steaks myself. i've never been a big fan of the do-as-i-say, not-as-i-do philosophy.
*****
i went shopping this afternoon for a dress to wear to two weddings - one in august and one labor day weekend - so i wanted something i could wear to both. the thing is, even though i wasn't exactly svelte pre-hans, i could at least always find something to wear. now, every flaw has been exaggerated. no designer or manufacturer cuts to my bizarre dimensions. i don't have the time to have something custom-made, and i hate to spend that much money on something i'll wear twice. so i sucked it up and tried on dress after dress after dress after dress - it was exhausting. i finally found a silk, two-piece dress that's kind of greek-goddess-y. i actually love the skirt, but the top is...difficult. it's kind of ruffly-drapy and shows far, far more skin than i would normally show. but it will work, and at least my hips and legs will look fabulous, even if my top half is overexposed. it just occurred to me - maybe all that skin will distract people from noticing the less-flattering aspects of the top. well, i can dream, can't i?
why does it have to be soooooo difficult?
*****
have you noticed that i use an obscene number of hyphens? i'm very hyphen-happy. see? i just did it again!
*****
we are rearranging and reorganizing our bedroom, and we decided to put together a little wall-o-hans in one corner under a dormer. i got coordinating frames for the certificate with his hand and foot prints and some pictures of him, but i'm having trouble figuring out which ink cartridge in my printer is empty. before i realized i had an ink shortage, i also lined up 24 photos to go in a couple of pocket-sized baby photo albums we bought a while back so we could carry a little bit of him with each of us, so none of my photo ambitions are being realized today. i really need something to go right.
*****
i'm picking up justin from work in a few minutes, and we're going to try to see a little bit of some city's fireworks, but we don't have a good track record. five years ago today, we were in a plane flying from new york to jacksonville and watched the fireworks display of every city along the east coast from overhead, but it's been downhill from there. the next year, we spent the evening trying to find a ladder tall enough to reach the roof of the entry way of his old condo to retrieve his car keys which i had thrown on to the roof in a fit of anger (i really meant to toss them to justin, honest - the anger just caused my throw to be a little wild). last year on the fourth, only we knew we were pregnant, a thought i hugged to me as i watched the fireworks in public square with greg and dyan - while justin sat stuck on the train trying to get to us, which he did about 20 minutes after the fireworks were over. wish us luck tonight - we'll need it.
posted by laura at 8:23 PM
2 Comments:
I hope you are enjoying a wonderful fireworks display right now.
I have reached the same crisis point with printing pictures. Only we're so strapped for cash after burying Alex in May and taking time off work that I can't afford to go buy a refill for the inkjet. OY! Talk about frustrating. (I don't know why I felt the need to tell you that...I think I share way too much these days)
Glad to hear that the vegetarian-except-for-fish thing is working out! I've been toying with the idea of being a vegetarian for awhile now, mainly since reading Fast Food Nation a few years back and being completly horrified and disgusted at the whole meat industry. And, like you, I have slowly been adapting my diet. The only meat we have at home is chicken and fish, and only about once a week. And it has to be organic because I never want to support the factory farming of chickens. which is why we have it about once a week, because organic meat is pretty expensive. I never eat meat out ever anymore because I have no idea where the meat is coming from. Last night there was a documentary on BBC called "Slaughterhouse: Inside an Abattoir". It was pretty graphic and gruesome (even though it was done in a way not to be too OTP - lots of black & white footage accompanied by nice music). The narrator started off by saying "If abattoirs had glass walls everyone would be a vegetarian". It summed it up for me.
One of these days I might just go the whole way!
I need to buy a dress for a wedding in September and i am dreading the thought of it! So I can relate to that dilemma. Glad you found something nice.
Hope you had a nice 4th!
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