take a deep breath with me now
wow - either i have made some beautiful friends in bloglandia, or some people need to get hobbies.
truly, i didn't mean to leave anyone hanging. i've been out at this all day wedding, which was lovely, by the way, thanks for asking. i'll see tomorrow if any of my pics came out and maybe post some and maybe write a bit about it.
here's the deal: i can't drive myself crazy with testing every hour (or four) on the hour. i am choosing to not drive myself crazy. i'm calling my doctor at the crack of 8 on monday and making an appointment and we will sort everything out. i will beg and plead and tell his secretary i'm having severe uterine prolapse or something ominous sounding so i can get in right away. but i cannot *live* am-i-pregnant-or-is-something-wrong??? all the time every day.
being pregnant with hans was a perpetual roller coaster. i was a basket case 24/7/40. i nearly lost my mind. i need the next time around to be less anxiety-filled than the first. i know it's a lofty goal, to think i could experience less worry rather than more in light of hans's stillbirth. but i have to try to stay off the roller coaster, and it has to start now, now that the goalie's been benched. it is incredibly important to me, and to my mental health.
so i'm going to sleep in, and then i'm going to have a nice brunch with justin. after i take him to work, i'm going to see a movie and get groceries and clean up the whirlwind debris-like mess that is my house. i'm going to do tons of yoga. i'm going to go back to work on monday and inwardly swear at my despised co-worker as usual. i'm going to start getting things together for our car/camping trip on which we're embarking on friday. i'm going to keep doing what i've been doing and i'm going to *not worry*. at least i'm going to try. hang in there with me.
truly, i didn't mean to leave anyone hanging. i've been out at this all day wedding, which was lovely, by the way, thanks for asking. i'll see tomorrow if any of my pics came out and maybe post some and maybe write a bit about it.
here's the deal: i can't drive myself crazy with testing every hour (or four) on the hour. i am choosing to not drive myself crazy. i'm calling my doctor at the crack of 8 on monday and making an appointment and we will sort everything out. i will beg and plead and tell his secretary i'm having severe uterine prolapse or something ominous sounding so i can get in right away. but i cannot *live* am-i-pregnant-or-is-something-wrong??? all the time every day.
being pregnant with hans was a perpetual roller coaster. i was a basket case 24/7/40. i nearly lost my mind. i need the next time around to be less anxiety-filled than the first. i know it's a lofty goal, to think i could experience less worry rather than more in light of hans's stillbirth. but i have to try to stay off the roller coaster, and it has to start now, now that the goalie's been benched. it is incredibly important to me, and to my mental health.
so i'm going to sleep in, and then i'm going to have a nice brunch with justin. after i take him to work, i'm going to see a movie and get groceries and clean up the whirlwind debris-like mess that is my house. i'm going to do tons of yoga. i'm going to go back to work on monday and inwardly swear at my despised co-worker as usual. i'm going to start getting things together for our car/camping trip on which we're embarking on friday. i'm going to keep doing what i've been doing and i'm going to *not worry*. at least i'm going to try. hang in there with me.
posted by laura at 1:12 AM
6 Comments:
Hi, I'm not asking, just saying hi.
See, it can be done.
Well done on staying sane and healthy. It is more than many of us manage - and that's just when we're vicariously living YOUR life:D~
Well, okay. Fine. I agree with your quest for normalcy. And that we need hobbies. So, glad you enjoyed the wedding. And how about this weather, huh? :-P
I'm glad you finally were able to get up off the floor and put ice on your burns, even if it was one in the morning before you did this. I hope today you two will be able to laugh at it all. Remember to put Vaseline on your sores; they won't scar as badly that way.
Okay. It's both. I definitely need a hobby. :) Does gambling on horse races count?
Ok yep, count me in for a hobby too. Haven't I said before that I have no life? I totally support your quest for normalcy, and am behind you all the way. I truely hope you can manage to find it. ((((Laura))))
Hanging in right along with you. Hoping for calm waves and perhaps just perhaps... some excellent news in the days to come.
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