between a large sweet potato and a small zucchini

to me, a large sweet potato is bigger than a small zucchini, but according to the experts at baby center, little z was the sweet potato last tuesday and is moving toward the zucchini by next tuesday. it sounds like a backwards move, doesn't it?

on the way home yesterday, i was feeling a little weird, but when we got home the handy-dandy doppler exposed z as a galloping, swishing, looping back-flipper with a heartbeat to match. it occurred to me then that i was eight days past my last check-up, which would explain my lack of confidence. and when you think about it, eight days is a slight improvement on the usual seven-day coast i get from an appointment, so maybe things are getting better for me, mental health-wise.

maybe a good vacation extended the coast-factor. if nothing else, all the good food probably kept me in a buzzed state, and i think i felt z a couple of times, while we saw movies, which could only have helped. on the other hand, seeing all the new-walkers and early babblers with their parents in oaxaca kept me thinking about hans, and that he wasn't there...which reminded me that z isn't a sure thing. will this back and forth ever end? even when it doesn't cut as deeply as it used to, it's still discombobulating.

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the travel blog is updated with pics! warning: don't look if you're hungry; the pics will only make it worse. trust me.