who stopped the clock?
how is it that i'm still two days away from 21 weeks??? the first trimester zoomed by, and i practically leapt over the first half of the second trimester, to 19 weeks, which was supposed to be my halfway point, since my ob discussed an early induction ("a couple of weeks early") at my first appointment of the current pregnancy. when i suggested my brother's birthday, 17 days before the due date, he thought that sounded fine. "sounds good to me," he said. i wish i had gotten it in writing.
at 19 weeks, he suddenly backed off. the bastard. oh, no, you don't want an induction. too much risk. too much chance of having to get a c-section. c-section is too risky. you don't want to do that. ho, ho, ho, the earliest i'd think of inducing is a week before your due date, and even then only if we did a late amnio and the lungs were completely mature.
i'm a little angry. it's not like i made up what he said. he acted like i was talking out of my ass. (wouldn't that be a nice show for him, next time i'm up in the stirrups.) it's not like i want to jeopardize milo's or my health, but as soon as we're ready to go, we need to get going, dammit. i nearly came undone the first time around during the last month, and i didn't even get how bad it could be - and was. when he backtracked on me, i deflated on the spot, and i still haven't recovered. i've tried to distract myself with house-purging and baby clothes-shopping, but it's not helping. i am completely blah.
because when all of the sudden i wasn't at the halfway point, everything went into slow motion. i thought 20 weeks would never come. and now i have been 20 weeks for a month, i swear to you. there's a roller coaster at cedar point, an ohio amusement park, that takes off like a shot with what is supposed to be enough force to propel you over a giant, upside-down U, but the engineers needed to smoke a little less crack, because the cars kept not making it over the hump. i've stood in line for two hours, watching car after car hover, hover, hover over the middle before sliding back to the beginning, which always ends in them closing down the ride when i am within five minutes of getting on it (never mind what it says about my mental capacity that i wait to get on this piece of crap). top thrill dragster is what it's called, i think; i'm not sure, because i haven't been there in several years, what with being pregnant for three consecutive summers.
i feel stuck on the top of the arch without the thrill, just the drag.
at 19 weeks, he suddenly backed off. the bastard. oh, no, you don't want an induction. too much risk. too much chance of having to get a c-section. c-section is too risky. you don't want to do that. ho, ho, ho, the earliest i'd think of inducing is a week before your due date, and even then only if we did a late amnio and the lungs were completely mature.
i'm a little angry. it's not like i made up what he said. he acted like i was talking out of my ass. (wouldn't that be a nice show for him, next time i'm up in the stirrups.) it's not like i want to jeopardize milo's or my health, but as soon as we're ready to go, we need to get going, dammit. i nearly came undone the first time around during the last month, and i didn't even get how bad it could be - and was. when he backtracked on me, i deflated on the spot, and i still haven't recovered. i've tried to distract myself with house-purging and baby clothes-shopping, but it's not helping. i am completely blah.
because when all of the sudden i wasn't at the halfway point, everything went into slow motion. i thought 20 weeks would never come. and now i have been 20 weeks for a month, i swear to you. there's a roller coaster at cedar point, an ohio amusement park, that takes off like a shot with what is supposed to be enough force to propel you over a giant, upside-down U, but the engineers needed to smoke a little less crack, because the cars kept not making it over the hump. i've stood in line for two hours, watching car after car hover, hover, hover over the middle before sliding back to the beginning, which always ends in them closing down the ride when i am within five minutes of getting on it (never mind what it says about my mental capacity that i wait to get on this piece of crap). top thrill dragster is what it's called, i think; i'm not sure, because i haven't been there in several years, what with being pregnant for three consecutive summers.
i feel stuck on the top of the arch without the thrill, just the drag.
posted by laura at 6:06 PM
7 Comments:
Oh no no no, that doesn't fly. That will not do. Change doctors if you have to. If you want to be induced at 38+1, you SHOULD be induced at 38+1. Period full stop. Your OB needs to recognize that in a subsequent pregnancy you don't fool around with the mother's mind like that, you don't agree to one thing and then change your tune halfway in.
And why would he need an amnio at 39 weeks? If he wants one, fine, but the standard protocol is a green light for induction after 38 weeks. In fact with Chloe i waited until 39+2 by choice, because i knew i o'd a week late so that it was really 38+2.
Oh, also, why not do what i did with Chloe -- break the water first to try to start labor? Heck, it might work, and save you the pit drip. And if not, then no harm, no foul really.
I understand the deflated feeling you describe and am now entering into the panic phase(and how much worse must you be feeling than I am huh?)... I am wishing you the strength to either have a showdown with your doc or change. But I know when you are feeling so knocked around it's hard.
Thinking of you :)
There's no reason not to induce if you want to, especially given your history. There is a higher risk of a c-section, but that is a manageable risk and they do whackloads of them so what'sthe big deal? Maybe you can come to some compromise and induce at 39 weeks.
Maybe you should let the fiesty gang here have a word with your doctor, lol! Hope you're able to find an acceptable compromise. The again, why should you compromise -- it's your friggin' baby!
And lol about "talking out of your ass" while in the stirrups... if that didn't get his attention, I don't know what would!
I'm sorry your OB is putting you through this! When I spoke to mine about a similar issue, she said that at 39 weeks no amnio would be needed; before that, she said she might feel the need to do one depending on how early it was. 38 weeks seems plenty late enough to me, though.
I can relate to the feeling of time stopping. I feel like I've been pregnant for nearly two years (oh wait, maybe because I HAVE been pregnant for nearly two years) and I am ready to just have a damn baby already. Plus I'm already huge and getting uncomfortable this time, much earlier, so it feels like I should be further along than I am.
I hope you can work it out with the doctor and find something that's acceptable to both of you. And it's probably not too late to get a new doctor, if that's what it comes down to.
Umm... my docs aren't even saying i need an amnio to deliver at 36 weeks. But i'm special in that "we don't want you to explode" sort of way. (and we're just trying to walk the nicu vs. exploding uterus line)
I think inducing at 38 weeks seems very reasonable. Ask him when they would still try to stop your labor. If they wouldn't stop labor at 37 weeks, why would they need to check lung maturity at 38 weeks? the only trade off is they may be more freaky in the hospital and want to "observe" the baby longer in the nursery if you deliver right at 38 weeks.
I grew up in the midwest, and used to go to Cedar Point every year. I miss it, and like you, haven't been able to ride real roller coasters for some time. The roller coaster that is my life is more than enough, thank you.
I also feel like time has slowed down a bit. I was hoping things would move a little more quickly toward my due date, but with weekly OB and cardiology appts., I am constantly reminded of how long it takes for this baby to cook.
I haven't talked to my OB about early induction yet, but I really want to. I am hoping I will go into labor early, anyway, so I have been basing my timing on the hope that I will deliver at 37 or 38 weeks. If that's the case, I only have a little over 14 weeks left to go. That doesn't sound so bad, actually!
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