t-shirt philosophy

this afternoon in a little touristy, pseudo-boho shop in bellingham, i saw a baby t-shirt that said:

a baby

born not by luck

but by the process of a thousand miracles

i wouldn't ordinarily put much stock in a slogan on a t-shirt, but this one pierced me. i immediately knew whomever wrote that bit of verse has walked in my shoes. i wrote it down, and when i read it to justin, he said, "we had 999 miracles."

the shopkeepers in this town must be really tired of me crying in all of their places; it can't be good for business.

i also cried today in a coffee shop when my primary physician called me. i had spent all day trying to penetrate the horrible office staff, and when i finally heard her voice, i broke down. i had not seen her in a year, since my ready-to-get-pregnant physical, so i brought her up to date, and she asked a lot of questions, and cried with me, and it was so hard but also so good. (she also called in a prescription for my horrible cold, which i knew she would do but her office staff swore she wouldn't.) i could just hug her.

tomorrow, justin and i will head off on our own, and hopefully being alone combined with me starting finally to feel better will help us a lot.