crossing my fingers
i peed in the cup and let them stick me three times to try to get enough blood and then i let my doctor feel me up and now i just have to wait a few days. sigh. i'm not very good at waiting.
my doctor and i had a good long talk about hans's death, and then she broke the news that she is getting married and moving to los angeles. i adore her and am severely distressed; i'm just going to have to stay completely healthy; no one will able to take her place.
she asked me a bunch of questions about hans and about how i was handling his death, and we talked a little about the autopsy, which she had taken the time to pull up and read, and then she told me three things:
1. don't feel guilty about hans's death - it's not my fault.
2. my second child deserves as much anticipation as my first.
3. don't unfairly compare my second child to my first.
happily, i've already dealt with these issues, but at least it was another affirmation that i'm headed in the right direction.
*****
i'm feeling pretty emotional about nathan's death tonight. i wish i had kept in touch with him. i loved that when i taught him in sunday school he was still just young enough to be enthusiastic about learning and to want to impress me. one of the local tv stations in jacksonville did a little story about him, and they have some pics on their website, too. i've got to write a note to his parents.
writing a sympathy note is not something i used to do, but now i understand how much it means.
my doctor and i had a good long talk about hans's death, and then she broke the news that she is getting married and moving to los angeles. i adore her and am severely distressed; i'm just going to have to stay completely healthy; no one will able to take her place.
she asked me a bunch of questions about hans and about how i was handling his death, and we talked a little about the autopsy, which she had taken the time to pull up and read, and then she told me three things:
1. don't feel guilty about hans's death - it's not my fault.
2. my second child deserves as much anticipation as my first.
3. don't unfairly compare my second child to my first.
happily, i've already dealt with these issues, but at least it was another affirmation that i'm headed in the right direction.
*****
i'm feeling pretty emotional about nathan's death tonight. i wish i had kept in touch with him. i loved that when i taught him in sunday school he was still just young enough to be enthusiastic about learning and to want to impress me. one of the local tv stations in jacksonville did a little story about him, and they have some pics on their website, too. i've got to write a note to his parents.
writing a sympathy note is not something i used to do, but now i understand how much it means.
posted by laura at 11:43 PM
2 Comments:
That's really really sad about your student. I hate this stupid war. I'm so sorry to hear about that.
I'm sorry too. I know the note will be hard to write, but it will mean so much to his family.
The war sucks, and from a position slightly more on the outside from here in Canada it appears to be completely insane; that makes all the deaths that much more heartbreaking.
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