mental poop
this morning's ob visit went badly. nothing's wrong, per se, except that i woke up with a sore throat and a white tongue, but the delivery conversation went horribly wrong. the peri apparently hasn't talked to my ob, and i was out there alone, fighting against his determination to hold off until 39 weeks and his not taking seriously my mental health concerns about the effects of waiting on my ability to function as a mother. after he said he thought i was "creating a situation where there wasn't one," i dissolved into crying and a complete loss of dignity and the battle was pretty much lost.
i am worn out from holding it together. justin sees the doctors' difference of opinion as being about two weeks, and two weeks as not being a big deal. but from where i sit, two weeks is a hell of a big difference. two weeks is a long time to maintain this mental state of ambush. i need some relief.
i am worn out from holding it together. justin sees the doctors' difference of opinion as being about two weeks, and two weeks as not being a big deal. but from where i sit, two weeks is a hell of a big difference. two weeks is a long time to maintain this mental state of ambush. i need some relief.
posted by laura at 11:10 AM
7 Comments:
get the freakin' peri to do his job and call the gd ob! sheesh!
Can I come out there and kick that peri's ass for you?? What a dick.
Keep pushing for it...I played the depression card with the OB when I was at the end with Kam and they decided it was worth inducing me instead of letting me jump off the nearest building.
((hugs))
Yeah, I would call the peri and explain the situation. Honestly, I am really surprised that with Hans and now the gd he would want you to try to go to 39 weeks. I'm surprised he isn't just trying to get you to 36. Bah.
Just think that you only have to get to 36. That's less than 4 weeks. Then go crazy on their asses.
I'm sorry the peri was such an ass. I'm surprised you didn't let loose on him when he made that comment about your creating a situation. Are you still working? I can tell I am starting to go a little crazy, so I decided to stop working at 36 weeks (as of July 1) instead of later, as originally planned. I think this will do wonders for my mental state. Don't know if this is an option for you. In the meantime, I'm hoping that at 36 weeks, we'll have more of a sense of where we stand. Ideally, I'd like to go naturally at 38 weeks, but I'd like to go for an induction if that doesn't happen. When you feel a little calmer, get on the phone and see how you can make it happen.
That makes me very, very angry.
Were I you I would want that baby out at 36 or 37 weeks, no questions asked.
I know you're a big girl though, and you guys will figure it out.
I laughed out loud when you wrote that Justin said, "2 weeks isn't very long." That is exactly what Scott has said in the past.
2 weeks is an eternity when you're at the end of your pregnancy.
Don't count yourself out yet! I thought I'd be ready to lose my mind at the end, but I wasn't, it it hard to know how you'll feel when you get there. Talk to the peri, regroup and try and come to an agreement that suits everyone, maybe you can all agree on 38 as a compromise or something. The OB is thinking of Milo, too, 2 weeks is a lot in Milo's terms at this point in his life.
Your OB is a complete fuckwit if for no other reason than being patronising and insensitive.
DBM has a point though. Even when you think you cannot go another second you'll be shocked and possibly unprepared when you arrive regardless of when that is.
BUt for me, two weeks was an eternity and I'd never actually dealt with the reality of what two weeks can mean in terms of saving lives and sanity. Call the peri. Light a fire under his lazy arse. And keep holding on ok?
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