sooner, rather than later, but when?
Yeah, I've realized that I'm with Laura on this one: the time that seems most appropriate for us to have another child should be sooner, rather than later. Sure, we've plenty of issues to address before we 'pull the goalie', so to speak, but it's certainly a topic worthy of our continued discussion now.
What troubles me most, and I'm sure that this will be the biggest point of contention in actually doing, and cause the most stress during, is that there will be no part of the pregnancy that we didn't go through with Johannes. See, Johannes not only went to term, he went past his due date! Due dates are evil!
This is going to be a huge burden on our wellbeing, and our nerves, throughout any future pregnancy. We were both nervous wrecks throughout Johannes term, and apparently for good reason. I'm still trying to figure out, how in the world, we are going to make it through an entire nine months, knowing that for nine months our other boy developed, by all accounts per average, and then died in his last 48 hours.
I really do feel for our next child, in utero, s/he's going to be feeling a whole lot of stress coming from us.
Good luck kiddo, whenever you shall come, we're pullin' for you.
What troubles me most, and I'm sure that this will be the biggest point of contention in actually doing, and cause the most stress during, is that there will be no part of the pregnancy that we didn't go through with Johannes. See, Johannes not only went to term, he went past his due date! Due dates are evil!
This is going to be a huge burden on our wellbeing, and our nerves, throughout any future pregnancy. We were both nervous wrecks throughout Johannes term, and apparently for good reason. I'm still trying to figure out, how in the world, we are going to make it through an entire nine months, knowing that for nine months our other boy developed, by all accounts per average, and then died in his last 48 hours.
I really do feel for our next child, in utero, s/he's going to be feeling a whole lot of stress coming from us.
Good luck kiddo, whenever you shall come, we're pullin' for you.
posted by justinian at 9:54 AM
2 Comments:
Hi again. I feel your pain about conceiving another child. It seems strange to move on. I feel guilty for wanting the next one, like I'm doing an injustice to Isaac. I know that's not the case, but I can't help the way that I feel. I will be worried throughout the next pg too, and we only got to 21 weeks. I'm just so aware of all that can go wrong in pregnancy, not just at the marker that we got too. I guess that makes me wiser...but I'd rather not have that experience or knowledge that makes me so. Just wanted to let you know that I share your feelings. Just wondering if you have read the book "Life Touches Life" by Lorraine Ash? I read it and really got a lot from it. I recommend it, if you haven't read.
Holly
Hi Justin and Laura
I responded to you in an earlier blog entry, just in case you haven't checked. I also read "Life Touches Life", the book Holly recommended,and I also find it helpful. Definitely one of the better grief books.
I feel all the same things you do about another pregnancy. It will be a scary (could I handle another loss if something went wrong?), bizarre, surreal and terrifying experience, but I hope it happens, for all of us who have experienced this devastating loss. Take care.
Post a Comment
<< Home