some discombobulating things
i am trying so hard not to complain. but i am this close. the nausea is making it difficult to concentrate on anything, like, oh, i don't know, WORK. is that complaining? i think it is. i've officially crossed the line.
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it seems inconceivable to me that we're actually going to have another baby, one that, with a little luck, we will actually bring home, and keep, and raise. we won't be babysitting or borrowing this child. it will always be around. whoa.
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it was so much fun to tell my friend over dinner and, later, justin's grandmother about the tadpole. they are both thrilled, plus we got justin's grandmother to rip extensively on the infamous aunt who, among other things, sent a message to the hospital (while i was in labor with hans) that she had asked her pastor, who was leaving that day on a mission trip, to bring us back a filipino baby. frankly, i've only recently stopped worrying daily that i'm going to come to find a baby in a basket on my porch, and about how i'm going to explain to the authorities that i had nothing to do with the kidnapping of this child.
today at work, we're having a nacho bar and chocolate cake potluck to celebrate that one co-worker bought her first house this week, and two of them are starting back to school this week, and that the tadpole is now among us. i love it when people walk by and ask what we're celebrating, and i get to tell them. people are so genuinely happy for me. i love that.
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over dinner last night, my friend said, i have to tell you, it's such a relief! and then she felt like she had said something wrong and apologized. but with a little encouragement she explained that it's so much eaiser now to talk about hans and about what happened; for the last six months, i guess she's felt like there was all this pressure - i'm not sure pressure to what - but it's gone now.
as little sense as that seems to make, it is making some sense to me, because it's happened several times. three of the women with which i work, regularly but not in the same department, have suddenly, upon hearing about the tadpole, poured out their hearts to me about how sad they were about hans. i think some people were afraid to talk about him for fear of making me sad, but now that there's new hope they feel safe. i guess. i'm not articulating this feeling very well. but it's clear that many people feel not only ecstatic but relieved that we're having another baby. well, guess what - i'm both ecstatic and relieved, too. :)
*****
it seems inconceivable to me that we're actually going to have another baby, one that, with a little luck, we will actually bring home, and keep, and raise. we won't be babysitting or borrowing this child. it will always be around. whoa.
*****
it was so much fun to tell my friend over dinner and, later, justin's grandmother about the tadpole. they are both thrilled, plus we got justin's grandmother to rip extensively on the infamous aunt who, among other things, sent a message to the hospital (while i was in labor with hans) that she had asked her pastor, who was leaving that day on a mission trip, to bring us back a filipino baby. frankly, i've only recently stopped worrying daily that i'm going to come to find a baby in a basket on my porch, and about how i'm going to explain to the authorities that i had nothing to do with the kidnapping of this child.
today at work, we're having a nacho bar and chocolate cake potluck to celebrate that one co-worker bought her first house this week, and two of them are starting back to school this week, and that the tadpole is now among us. i love it when people walk by and ask what we're celebrating, and i get to tell them. people are so genuinely happy for me. i love that.
*****
over dinner last night, my friend said, i have to tell you, it's such a relief! and then she felt like she had said something wrong and apologized. but with a little encouragement she explained that it's so much eaiser now to talk about hans and about what happened; for the last six months, i guess she's felt like there was all this pressure - i'm not sure pressure to what - but it's gone now.
as little sense as that seems to make, it is making some sense to me, because it's happened several times. three of the women with which i work, regularly but not in the same department, have suddenly, upon hearing about the tadpole, poured out their hearts to me about how sad they were about hans. i think some people were afraid to talk about him for fear of making me sad, but now that there's new hope they feel safe. i guess. i'm not articulating this feeling very well. but it's clear that many people feel not only ecstatic but relieved that we're having another baby. well, guess what - i'm both ecstatic and relieved, too. :)
posted by laura at 12:42 PM
7 Comments:
my jaw hit the floor with the fillipino baby thing. wtf? holy moly, what a woman.
mmmmm nachos and chocolate cake. now i know what to make for dinner.
so glad everyone is happy (and relieved) now that the news of the tadpole is out. (psst, laura's preggo - pass it on)
we're still just giddy out here!
You deserve the smiles...enjoy them (and the chocolate cake).
The aunt is out there, really, but she's kind, gentle and very generous, probably to a fault.
I think that every family has atleast one of these.
Was there sour cream and guacamole with those nachos? Yummmmmmmmm:)
It's very cool that everyone is overjoyed for you, you must make the same big impression in real life as you do here - and I'm not talking about the huge impression you'd make if you fell sideways into the snow in January!
How wonderful to feel and sound so happy.
I hope the nausea is bearable.
That's great that you can feel so much joy in sharing your news. It's interesting the way people have reacted -- it must be nice to be able to talk about Hans more openly, now that people are less queasy about it. And speaking of queasy, I hope the nausea gets better (but doesn't it feel great, on some level, lol?!).
Ann
Yeah for nausea!
So how do you feel about their reactions?
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