doh!

i woke up wanting to blog about the nightmares in which i cursed and screamed at my dad, and maybe a little bit about the joy of wendy's broccoli 'n' cheese potatoes and before i started writing, i whirled through the usual blogs to see what was up in bloglandia and now i am sick to my stomach and not in the usual pregnancy-related way. i am afraid i have driven anna underground with my ravings about god. i didn't comment or link to her blog for a long time, even though i read it, because she seemed so lovely and full of faith and i didn't want to poison her with my cynicism, but gradually i caved a little because i wanted her to know i was pulling for her and her pregnancy. and now i think i've gone too far. i thought my comment was at least somewhat respectful, seeing as how i explained what i thought and what made sense (or not) to me. i didn't attack her or her faith, honest - i even told her i respected and envied her faith and what it gave her, or something like that - i don't remember exactly, and she's deleted it. i feel like a roman emperor who's just driven the christians further underground - not my intent at all. i feel horrible. i can't even remember what i was so anxious to blog about this morning.

of course, it's monday.