the good aunt
so hanging out with my nephew is okay. he has such a charming disposition, it's impossible to resist him. and while i have thought a few times while holding him about hans and what he would be like now, it hasn't been crushing. i think it's because i think of hans as a toddler. in my dreams about him before he was born, he was always a toddler, and when i have had a hard time seeing other children, it's been three year olds, not babies, that have gotten to me. maybe it will be harder in a few years, when my nephew is the age at which i think of hans, but maybe the tadpole will keep me so preoccupied i won't have time to wonder. i wish i could see the future.
posted by laura at 8:52 AM
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It's amazing what the mind does to survive, isn't it?
It's also lovely that your nephew gets to know you so properly, without your guard up. It's a real gift you have given him, you know?
And you are right - by the time he is 3, Tadpole will be just starting to walk and giving you a heart attack reaching for everything that isn't screwed down:) Hopefully that will mean you never have to have crippling sadness associated with your nephew.
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