the day after
of course, i couldn't sleep late, but i did manage to sleep a good nine hours, so yea for that.
we had a pretty relaxed day, in which i managed to take the reglan early enough to keep from puking and i had time for a nap. meanwhile, yesterday just seems surreal, like something that must have happened last time around.
i feel a little like i did a few days after hans died - i just wander around the house, trying to hold to some kind of fake routine as a way of feeling some kind of groundedness. maybe it will be a little while before i can fully process yesterday. i couldn't even really talk to the tadpole today. i feel like i need some space. the tadpole is definitely in my personal space.
we had a pretty relaxed day, in which i managed to take the reglan early enough to keep from puking and i had time for a nap. meanwhile, yesterday just seems surreal, like something that must have happened last time around.
i feel a little like i did a few days after hans died - i just wander around the house, trying to hold to some kind of fake routine as a way of feeling some kind of groundedness. maybe it will be a little while before i can fully process yesterday. i couldn't even really talk to the tadpole today. i feel like i need some space. the tadpole is definitely in my personal space.
posted by laura at 11:27 PM
1 Comments:
yeah, the semi-fog...hmmm, i'm not sure how you can get space, because you're right, the tadpole is in your very personal space. (i'm not sure it gets more personal than that)
maybe you and justin can have a really nice date just for you? like not as the tadpole's parents, but just as yourselves. a teenst break, if you will, from reality and a jaunt into that space in which only the two of you exist..you know what i mean? not sure if that's possible or helpful, but the only other thing i can say is breathe.
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