still smiling
at least for now, i'm just excited and not too anxious. let's hope it lasts.
several people mentioned twins, but the beta isn't that high. it's pretty unlikely. i would be thrilled with twins, but the beta number is pretty low for multiples. i'd rather have a good solid mid-range beta for a single z than a barely hanging on number for double zzs.
justin called me at work yesterday to ask if i wanted to meet his brother and his wife after work. i had a pretty good feeling that there would be a big announcement, and i was right. i am happy for them, but i also feel keenly the difference in our ages. my sister-in-law (who is 21) had her first or second appointment yesterday, and she must be about 18 weeks. she's seeing her family practitioner. she's having a standard mid-term ultrasound in a couple of weeks, and everything's been fine, although her appetite has increased, which it would have to do, since she never, ever eats anything.
on the way to meet them for dinner, we talked about whether we would tell them about little z. we decided that if they were nervous about telling us, afraid of it being difficult for us, we would take the pressure off of them and tell them, but if they were just happy about it, we would just let it be their moment. we ended up letting it be their moment. my guess is that they can't imagine what has happened to us happening to them (who of us didn't feel the same way?), maybe even more so because i am 15 years older than my sister-in-law. must be nice to be young and blissfully confident of your immunity. i kind of wish we had delivered a living child first before we moved on to them, but i don't wish them any harm. maybe i'm just jealous of them.
i yelled to little z (so it could hear, of course) this morning some encouragement to grow. i explained that its big brother almost certainly would have been bossy, being the oldest, so z will have to be bigger than him to keep the balance of power in check. hans was 6 lb 3 oz; it's not that i want to have to push out a giant baby, but i'd feel a little better about z's prospects if it was a little less puny than its brother. plus, now z will have two cousins just a little older than him or her - z's going to need some size to keep up.
please let z live to be tormented by its older cousins.
several people mentioned twins, but the beta isn't that high. it's pretty unlikely. i would be thrilled with twins, but the beta number is pretty low for multiples. i'd rather have a good solid mid-range beta for a single z than a barely hanging on number for double zzs.
justin called me at work yesterday to ask if i wanted to meet his brother and his wife after work. i had a pretty good feeling that there would be a big announcement, and i was right. i am happy for them, but i also feel keenly the difference in our ages. my sister-in-law (who is 21) had her first or second appointment yesterday, and she must be about 18 weeks. she's seeing her family practitioner. she's having a standard mid-term ultrasound in a couple of weeks, and everything's been fine, although her appetite has increased, which it would have to do, since she never, ever eats anything.
on the way to meet them for dinner, we talked about whether we would tell them about little z. we decided that if they were nervous about telling us, afraid of it being difficult for us, we would take the pressure off of them and tell them, but if they were just happy about it, we would just let it be their moment. we ended up letting it be their moment. my guess is that they can't imagine what has happened to us happening to them (who of us didn't feel the same way?), maybe even more so because i am 15 years older than my sister-in-law. must be nice to be young and blissfully confident of your immunity. i kind of wish we had delivered a living child first before we moved on to them, but i don't wish them any harm. maybe i'm just jealous of them.
i yelled to little z (so it could hear, of course) this morning some encouragement to grow. i explained that its big brother almost certainly would have been bossy, being the oldest, so z will have to be bigger than him to keep the balance of power in check. hans was 6 lb 3 oz; it's not that i want to have to push out a giant baby, but i'd feel a little better about z's prospects if it was a little less puny than its brother. plus, now z will have two cousins just a little older than him or her - z's going to need some size to keep up.
please let z live to be tormented by its older cousins.
posted by laura at 8:41 AM
8 Comments:
Smiling is good!
I was tormented by cousins so I have mixed feelings about that wish for z, but I really, really, hope it comes true. Z will have to keep up the sproglet, too.
My bro is five years older than she and he has reason enough to have some anxieties surrounding any pregnancy... But it's so good to see him this happy - infact, he's at the happiest that I've ever known him, which in turn, makes me really happy.
And apparently, between he and I and all these quick pregnancies (very honeymoonish for them), our boys can swim! Trust that there were more than a handful of hockey referances last night.
if i ever again hear "yeah, when we shoot in this family, we score!", it will be too soon.
I hate them already. Sorry. See, now I can be jealous of them for you so you don't have to.
(Hi, Z!)
grow z grow!
Well, even though you decided to sit on your news, I'm glad that you had news to sit on when you got their announcement. I hope that by the time their kid arrives, Z will be a nicely thriving F! And more importantly that he/she will be a cool little tyke someday who takes no guff from the cousins. C'mon Z!
You have a kind heart to let them enjoy their moment. And I'm smiling for you too...smiles are good.
Good for you! Go little Z!
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