my list of happy things

1. the doppler is getting easier to use at home. i can routinely find the heartbeat alone, but i can't see the reading at the same time; fortunately, we are getting better at finding it as a pair, too.
2. i have stayed in bed all day today, because i felt like it, dammit. okay - in part it's because we fought last night and i cried half the night and felt like big monkey doody this morning. but mostly it's 'cause i feel like it. i did get up to fix lunch (open faced muenster and peppered tofurkey on honey whole wheat, lentil/carrot/spinach soup, red grapes) for justin and me to share when he came home between shifts, but that was food worth getting up for. i just love to stay home in bed on snow days.
3. we went to my in-laws' friday night with the excuse of wanting to watch the cavs' game, which was on cable, which we don't have. we have been hiding from them since christmas eve, so as we came in justin's mom said, "let me look at you and see if you've changed since i saw you last." as she moved in to hug me, i opened my cape (truly, a pregnant mother's best friend in winter) and looked at my belly and said, "what do you think? do i look any different?" she looked down, and up at me, and down again, and up again, and then whispered, "are you?" "yes!" i said. much celebration followed, including german chocolate cake. ecstatic MIL + german chocolate cake = happyrama
4. we saw a beautiful show saturday night, "mo pas connin or torment" - it was entertaining and thought-provoking and heart-breaking and ultimately life-affirming, but in a non-lifetime movie kind of way, and all the more important because it captures some big elements of new orleans culture that may never exist in one place again. it's a one-woman show from nina domingue, who voiced the notorious "nurse evil" character in the radio version of pengo's play. i wish i could go see it again.
5. it's early still, and i'm so...well-padded - but i think z and me are beginning to make contact. during the play saturday night, i felt a little internal jiggle, and again a couple of times since. which reminds me - i need to go eat, and maybe i'll get to feel a little more of z's exuberance.

and for extra credit: according to the baby center calendar, z is now about the size of an avocado. how yummy!