satisfaction

i couldn't take it any more. i was feeling blechy, malnourished, completely unsatisfied. i needed beef, baby, and i needed it now. i had been reviewing the gd gd food log and realized i had devolved into a diet of apples, natural peanut butter, graham crackers and unsweetened soymilk. variety was severely lacking. no wonder i felt so crappy. i called justin from the car.

"have you started dinner yet?" i asked, crossing my fingers.

he hadn't. then don't, i told him. he came out to the car when i pulled up at the curb, and i didn't even put the car in park. we drove to siam cafe, and got the only empty table, and filled up. i started with the beef satay (with so-so peanut sauce but to-die-for apple relish) and then i ate the jumbo shrimp with vegetables in brown sauce, with carefully portioned out rice on the side. the beef was cooked perfectly, the shrimp were plump and fresh, and even in my anti-vegetable state i can eat anything green when it's in a good gingery brown sauce. i ate more vegetables than i've eaten in a week. maybe two. i ate all the shrimp, since they don't reheat worth a damn, and had the rest of my beef packed up with the rest of the veg, and i'm going for round two at lunch tomorrow. by the time we left siam, i felt like a new person.

then we went to see the perfect niece, who has gained half a pound but is still so, so tiny, and who is fabulously snuggalicious. when she started to feel damp in the seat, we left and went grocery shopping and - woohoo! - bought newman's ginger creme cookies, and when we came home i ate two of them with a glass of soymilk (and still kept under my bedtime snack carb numbers!), and i feel so damn satisfied.

at last.