too blechy to blog (much)

survived yesterday's checkup. my ob did not, in fact, turn me loose, and he increased my nightly insulin dosage. this morning's number was still out of target range but down a few points, so we're making progress, although my daytime numbers crept up a bit today.

milo has been making the earth move. he does what seems like this whole body swishing thing that makes me seasick. he did it for most of tuesday and yesterday, and since last evening the pressure on my bladder has been ultra intense. i suspect he was turning downward so he could use my bladder as a pillow. if so, i'd like to respectfully request a little less pressure on my bladder but appreciate him doing his part to get into position.

justin and i have been in intensive discussions this week about future birth control - and maybe the more permanent options. my ob thinks i'm an ideal candidate for the mirena iud, but if i'm going for something more permanent recommends a relatively new sort of tubal ligation where they go in vaginally, which avoids the surgical cutting. he is one of four people in the region who perform the procedure, so he's got practice, which would be a plus. justin is also open to getting snipped. we have much to talk about.

on top of contemplating sterilization, the whole drama of the gd gd is wearing us both down. for me, it manifests itself in depression. justin has his own shit, which he can discuss here if he so chooses. i am increasingly tired, increasingly less able to maintain my excitement, increasingly more desperate for both more sleep time and more exercise, but i just finished a round of prenatal yoga and now am going to capture what sleep i can.