that "i'm only going to drink if i'm drinking with someone else" rule is getting annoying

i had desperately hoped that the grief referral people would get back to me today, but, alas, they did not. would they have any liability if i did something drastic while awaiting their call? i suppose not, unless in my original request i had indicated imminent self-destruction.

it's not that i'm considering drastic action - it's only that i'm getting desperate for some relief. also, the nightly drinking is contributing to flushed skin and dark under-eye circles and pesky weight gain, although the last item could also be blamed on my recently-acquired addiction to reese's miniatures. at least i don't require company for eating my beloved tiny cups of chocolaty, peanuty joy. in fact, company somewhat diminishes the experience, since it would mean fewer of those diminuitive treats for me.

clearly, professional help is in order. i can only hope a purveyor of licensed, calorie-free, grief therapy calls me tomorrow.