it's my blog, and i'll whine if i want to

oh, so angry today, building as the day goes on. i'm not angry at my in-laws, but i'm angry *about* them. justin asked if i felt like they were stealing our thunder. let me be honest: yes. yes, i do. i'm also insanely jealous that they haven't a care in the world. la-ti-da, i'll wait to go see my gp until i'm 14 weeks. it's petty and churlish and small of spirit, but i don't care. i feel all of those things today. if i were three, i would so be on the floor, kicking my legs and howling and punching anyone who tried to pick me up.

also, today - my first bout of nausea not triggered by a toothbrush. i've managed to not vomit, but vomiting would be such sweet release. i don't want to put too much stock in nausea - with the tadpole, i clung to my nausea as evidence that it lived, when in fact, it didn't - but it's better to have a little than to not have any and worry. i think.

jealous anger and nausea on the same day - coincidence?