the last goodbyes
i've worked my last pre-milo day and said good-bye to everyone there (who threw me a lovely shower yesterday, complete with streamers and balloons and tons of homemade food - rigatoni and meatballs and salads and every kind of dip and dipper and brownies and banana bread - and a big fat gift card for target). we've made our last baby-free trek to the lake this morning to walk and run (although we did make a date to come back next saturday morning to the lake, and bring our breakfast, and i'll sit with milo in the stroller in the shade and watch the swimmers and kayakers while justin runs). and we've had our last cereal in bed.
we've gotten into a routine this pregnancy of having cereal in bed together every morning. sometimes, it's something other than cereal, but mostly it's trader joe's organic granny's apple granola, with soymilk, and our vitamins, and spearmint tea for justin and my one coffee (half a cup of instant coffee with splenda, in a tall glass filled up with soymilk) of the day. we get good and awake and formulate our gameplan for the day (which dr's appointment today? what should we do for dinner?), and then i jump in the shower.
justin works at 6 am tomorrow and monday (and we don't do the cereal in bed thing at 4:30 am - that would be inhumane), and then we'll be in the hospital, and then there will be milo. i suppose we could still eat cereal in bed, as milo allows, but in six short months he will be eating cereal, too, and i don't suppose he will understand why we can eat cereal in bed but he can't. of course, he's not the one who would have to change the sheets every freaking day after he smeared cereal and who knows what else all over the bed. so we've gotta start eating breakfast at the table, for the good of us all. i'm sure we'll still talk about the day and have our vitamins, and it will be nicer because milo will be with us, but i'll miss having my cereal upstairs.
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it appears justin's family will be with us for milo's birth (and by "with us" i mean "out in the hall leaving us the hell alone") but my family will be absent. my mom's situation has gone from bad to worse, and my dad's not traveling anywhere - probably ever - and my brother and sister have both decided to come later, maybe in october, for various extremely sensible but nonetheless disappointing-to-me reasons. we'll be going to florida about two weeks after milo's born, and he will be loved and adored by both my immediate and extended family, but i never pictured giving birth without my mom, at the very least. she made it here miraculously before i delivered hans, and the rest of my family came soon thereafter, but this time i will be alone.
of course, justin - the person i most want to be with! - will be there, and his family is magnificent and lovely and has made me one of them (i am so, so lucky in the in-law department), but i've been sad, and a little angry, the last few days about my family.
yesterday, when i lamented my family's absence to justin, he said the most wonderful and profound thing: "but you will have your family there. milo will be there."
he's exactly right, of course.
we've gotten into a routine this pregnancy of having cereal in bed together every morning. sometimes, it's something other than cereal, but mostly it's trader joe's organic granny's apple granola, with soymilk, and our vitamins, and spearmint tea for justin and my one coffee (half a cup of instant coffee with splenda, in a tall glass filled up with soymilk) of the day. we get good and awake and formulate our gameplan for the day (which dr's appointment today? what should we do for dinner?), and then i jump in the shower.
justin works at 6 am tomorrow and monday (and we don't do the cereal in bed thing at 4:30 am - that would be inhumane), and then we'll be in the hospital, and then there will be milo. i suppose we could still eat cereal in bed, as milo allows, but in six short months he will be eating cereal, too, and i don't suppose he will understand why we can eat cereal in bed but he can't. of course, he's not the one who would have to change the sheets every freaking day after he smeared cereal and who knows what else all over the bed. so we've gotta start eating breakfast at the table, for the good of us all. i'm sure we'll still talk about the day and have our vitamins, and it will be nicer because milo will be with us, but i'll miss having my cereal upstairs.
*****
it appears justin's family will be with us for milo's birth (and by "with us" i mean "out in the hall leaving us the hell alone") but my family will be absent. my mom's situation has gone from bad to worse, and my dad's not traveling anywhere - probably ever - and my brother and sister have both decided to come later, maybe in october, for various extremely sensible but nonetheless disappointing-to-me reasons. we'll be going to florida about two weeks after milo's born, and he will be loved and adored by both my immediate and extended family, but i never pictured giving birth without my mom, at the very least. she made it here miraculously before i delivered hans, and the rest of my family came soon thereafter, but this time i will be alone.
of course, justin - the person i most want to be with! - will be there, and his family is magnificent and lovely and has made me one of them (i am so, so lucky in the in-law department), but i've been sad, and a little angry, the last few days about my family.
yesterday, when i lamented my family's absence to justin, he said the most wonderful and profound thing: "but you will have your family there. milo will be there."
he's exactly right, of course.
posted by laura at 10:40 AM
10 Comments:
i can't believe that stubborn kid is waiting for the amnio and induction!!
I am so excited...thinking of you and wishing you all the best.
I have this visual in my head of the three of you by the lake next Sat. Beautiful.
You have a smart husband.
Anxiously awaiting your little bundle of joy's arrival!
I dont know how I stumbled across your blog, but I have been lurking for months. Waiting for this day. I just want to say that I am SO excited for you! I cannot wait to read about Milo. I love the plans that you have already made for next Saturday. I am so sorry about your family not being there, but I cried when I read what Justin said to you. He is right. I will be thinking of you.
MI-LO! MI-LO! MI-LO! MI-LO! MI-LO! MI-LO!
We can't wait. See you all soon!
Cory and I were alone, and neither family visited us at the hospital. I had to tell my mom to come when I had the c-section because I knew I needed help, so she saw Mimi 5 days old.
It still hurts a little, but I love that it's a moment I shared with Cory and my two other best friends, that he was the one to whisper "it's a girl" to me, and that I know I will knock down buildings in order to be there when my girl has a baby.
You will be fine, and this will be different from Hans' birth.
Are you walking around like 7 cm dilated at this point? How can this be? !?!?!?!
We are all there with you, you know?
Justin is so right. Your family will be there. He is an awsome husband and will be an awsome dad too. thinking of you all and sending many good wishes your way. May everything be right for you guys this time around.
Awwww....your post made me cry (happy tears, girl). And Justin is exactly right.
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