may day

it's a new month, and it feels like a new start. maybe the return to spring-ish weather makes it feel that way. also, the fact that justin is feeling more positively about trying to have another child lifts a huge weight off me, which is contributing to my fresh feeling. that, and the red-orange tulips in the front of the house, which finally opened today. oh, and the fact that our cd player in the car started miraculously working on its own again, so i could drive around today with the sun roof open blaring bloc party. woo-hoo.

another contribution to my well-being: i cried my heart out last night before i feel asleep. i missed hans so much. i sort of dribble tears all the time, but i just let the dam break last night and boy, did it feel good when it was over.

we celebrated justin's birthday this morning; it's really not until tomorrow, but it's impossible with his work schedule, so i declared this weekend to be his birthday weekend. friday night, i rented "rushmore" for him, which he always wants to rent but we never do because i've already seen it several times. yesterday, we celebrated at his mom's house; she made him eggplant parmesan, which may be the finest in the world, and had a cake for him that said, "happy bar mitzvah, luigi!" it made him very happy; you'll have to get him to explain why.

this morning i made him chocolate chocolate chip waffles with fresh raspberry sauce and a birthday candle. and i made him filthy, greasy, fried (veggie) sausage patties, which thrilled him to no end. i also gave him a gold and bejeweled king's crown to wear, which he did put on, but he wouldn't let me take his picture in it, so you'll have to use your imagination. he loved his presents (accessories for his bike), but the speedometer/odometer i got him was messed up, which was disappointing, and then when we got on our bikes, something was wrong with my chain, so we didn't get far. but other than that, it was a lovely morning. and after i took him to work i got his speedometer exchanged, so hopefully it will be uphill from here.

we haven't had much to celebrate lately, but apparently we haven't forgotten how. i wish hans was here for the celebration, though. i would have loved to have gotten justin a present from hans. although i think just having him with us would have been present enough for all of us.