i finally did it
i applied for a new job today. and let me be honest: i should have done it 2 1/2 years ago. why i didn't before now is complicated. i've had this job for three years this month. after seven months, a position came open in another department in my division that exactly matched my skills and experience. i applied for it, but wasn't taken seriously as a candidate; the hiring vp did not even schedule an interview with me but instead stopped by to see me while he was in my building and said something like, "i saw you applied; let's chat." he had not even looked at my resume; i had to grab a copy and he read it while i sat there. then he asked me some general questions and basically blew sunshine up my butt and thanked me for applying. that was it - i didn't even get a call back from the recruiter, who was ecstatic when i applied. that should have been a sign to me to move on, but i was in the process of throwing a wedding (plus a series of receptions) and it didn't seem like the right time.
a few months later, another position came open that really was beneath my qualifications but it would add another facet to my experience, so i applied and soared through the interviews - or so i thought. i heard publicly that someone else got the job, so i started asking questions and was finally told that the interviewing panel was intimidated by me and that if i really wanted the job, i should go back to each interviewer and grovel, and maybe in the future, as a woman, i should consider "toning it down" and playing dumb - and i was told this by a FEMALE vice-president in her mid 50s. i was so appalled that i was finally ready to leave - and then i got pregnant with hans. to leave would mean going through pregnancy and delivery without insurance (since pregnancy can be considered a pre-existing condition - un-freaking-believable!), so i stayed.
after hans died, a number of people and books advised me not to make any big changes for 18-24 months, and that was okay with me, because i didn't feel motivated to make any changes. there were no guarantees that any other job would be less miserable than the one i have, so why risk it?
this morning, i finally started yoga, and i've felt so great all day - looser, stronger - and that's after only one session!!! this evening, i was looking at my company's job postings for something for one of justin's relatives, when i saw it. the job. two miles from home (versus nearly 30 that i drive now). for a completely different division of the company. and i felt so good that i tweaked my resume and wrote a new cover letter and posted for it.
who knows - maybe the recruiter will call tomorrow, or maybe i'll hear nothing. maybe when the recruiter contacts my boss (who's been dangling a promotion over my head for months), he will be inspired to fight for me, and a bidding war will ensue. or maybe not. but i've finally broken out of my inertia, and boy, does it feel good.
cross your fingers for me.
a few months later, another position came open that really was beneath my qualifications but it would add another facet to my experience, so i applied and soared through the interviews - or so i thought. i heard publicly that someone else got the job, so i started asking questions and was finally told that the interviewing panel was intimidated by me and that if i really wanted the job, i should go back to each interviewer and grovel, and maybe in the future, as a woman, i should consider "toning it down" and playing dumb - and i was told this by a FEMALE vice-president in her mid 50s. i was so appalled that i was finally ready to leave - and then i got pregnant with hans. to leave would mean going through pregnancy and delivery without insurance (since pregnancy can be considered a pre-existing condition - un-freaking-believable!), so i stayed.
after hans died, a number of people and books advised me not to make any big changes for 18-24 months, and that was okay with me, because i didn't feel motivated to make any changes. there were no guarantees that any other job would be less miserable than the one i have, so why risk it?
this morning, i finally started yoga, and i've felt so great all day - looser, stronger - and that's after only one session!!! this evening, i was looking at my company's job postings for something for one of justin's relatives, when i saw it. the job. two miles from home (versus nearly 30 that i drive now). for a completely different division of the company. and i felt so good that i tweaked my resume and wrote a new cover letter and posted for it.
who knows - maybe the recruiter will call tomorrow, or maybe i'll hear nothing. maybe when the recruiter contacts my boss (who's been dangling a promotion over my head for months), he will be inspired to fight for me, and a bidding war will ensue. or maybe not. but i've finally broken out of my inertia, and boy, does it feel good.
cross your fingers for me.
posted by laura at 6:53 PM
3 Comments:
Good luck on getting that job!!! As far as not making any changes, it seems like about half the people that i talk to that have lost babies have moved within 2 year (I moved to a different state at 26 months actually) Sometimes change can be good, and sounds like the new job would be a good thing!
I've allready told you this, but I'll say it again: I am so proud of you for taking the initiative on this.
Hopefully your lead will inspire me to be more into the things that I am, and the things that I should, be doing.
I will keep my fingers crossed for you (making it very hard to type, ya know).
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