finally! the indians win! take that, seattle!
i've entered an exciting new phase. it may look like my old anger, but it's new and improved all temperature anger! this anger is more outward-focused than inward. i feel like a bulldozer. watch out.
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i had a great day at jacobs field, despite the heat and the fact that the catered picnic offered hot dogs, burgers, chicken and pasta salad, so i ate tomatoes and cheese on hot dog buns. i was not the oldest person in our group! okay, i was second oldest, but still. and there were at least four of us over the age of 30; it might have been five or six, but i didn't go around asking everyone's age. besides being a nice day, it will make my brother-in-law's labor-day-weekend wedding easier, because i will now know many more people.
i've been dreading the wedding a bit, because i spent nine months planning how great the wedding would be with hans. my mom gave me my brother's old sailor suit, which would have been just about the right size for hans at that point, and i couldn't wait to put him in it. justin was horrified by it, as were a number of other people, but justin's brother thought it was fantastic. maybe he was just being nice, or maybe he thought it would give him something about which to harass his nephew when he grew up. either way.
at six months and a little, hans would have been nicely interactive, and everyone would have wanted to pick him up and pass him around and generally fuss over him, and i couldn't wait for it. hans deserved that adoration, and i'm sad that he won't get it. i'm not in the wedding and don't have any responsibilities and i will be kind of at loose ends. i've never needed a child as an accessory; it's just that i was really invested in what a great coming out it would be for hans. instead, it will be six or so hours of great-aunts and second cousins asking me if we're trying again. ick.
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you can ignore the headline of this post. i couldn't care less. i just couldn't come up with anything pithy or twisted enough. maybe i'll get some baseball-related hits. i'm sure the blog topic will freak those people out. i feel angry enough to like that it will make them uncomfortable.
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i had a great day at jacobs field, despite the heat and the fact that the catered picnic offered hot dogs, burgers, chicken and pasta salad, so i ate tomatoes and cheese on hot dog buns. i was not the oldest person in our group! okay, i was second oldest, but still. and there were at least four of us over the age of 30; it might have been five or six, but i didn't go around asking everyone's age. besides being a nice day, it will make my brother-in-law's labor-day-weekend wedding easier, because i will now know many more people.
i've been dreading the wedding a bit, because i spent nine months planning how great the wedding would be with hans. my mom gave me my brother's old sailor suit, which would have been just about the right size for hans at that point, and i couldn't wait to put him in it. justin was horrified by it, as were a number of other people, but justin's brother thought it was fantastic. maybe he was just being nice, or maybe he thought it would give him something about which to harass his nephew when he grew up. either way.
at six months and a little, hans would have been nicely interactive, and everyone would have wanted to pick him up and pass him around and generally fuss over him, and i couldn't wait for it. hans deserved that adoration, and i'm sad that he won't get it. i'm not in the wedding and don't have any responsibilities and i will be kind of at loose ends. i've never needed a child as an accessory; it's just that i was really invested in what a great coming out it would be for hans. instead, it will be six or so hours of great-aunts and second cousins asking me if we're trying again. ick.
*****
you can ignore the headline of this post. i couldn't care less. i just couldn't come up with anything pithy or twisted enough. maybe i'll get some baseball-related hits. i'm sure the blog topic will freak those people out. i feel angry enough to like that it will make them uncomfortable.
posted by laura at 11:27 PM
3 Comments:
I simply cannot wait for new and improved anger. This original anger is starting to wear thin.
The wedding plans you had will at least be over and done with after the wedding...so there is an upside, no?
Anger? What's that? Did you see Karen's post on The Naked Ovary the other day with her "Greasy Shoulder Chips?" Ahhh, I loved that.
vix, what day was the greasy post? i glance at the naked ovary occasionally but don't remember that one and don't see it on her page now.
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