welcome to the world, spookster! also, my middle name is control
the sweet coalminer and her little spooky girl have finally met in person! i'm so happy and so relieved for them! now let's have some pictures!!!
*****
i plumbed the depths again with the new therapist, and we discussed control and projects and the like. while there's value in giving up trying to control that which cannot be controlled, she thinks i've gone a bit far. by nature, i'm good at directing and organizing...and controlling, and i've been denying my personality. she agrees that going back to school is a good project for me to direct for now. she also sees me treating this round of therapy as a project i'm directing, and thinks it's a good approach for me.
next week we're going to get a bit more specific on addressing my pregnancy anxiety in particular, but in the mean time she gave me tons of homework. when she learned i enjoy writing, she gave me several writing assignments, which i eagerly took, because there's nothing i like better than blabbering on about myself for pages and pages and pages.
as you well know.
*****
i've been a bad blogger this week, but i haven't had much to say (for me). i think i'm in a germination period. i have the beginnings of some new thoughts sprouting. expect new revelations, fantastic ravings, and maybe the meaning of life to appear in this blog in the coming weeks.
consider yourself warned.
*****
i plumbed the depths again with the new therapist, and we discussed control and projects and the like. while there's value in giving up trying to control that which cannot be controlled, she thinks i've gone a bit far. by nature, i'm good at directing and organizing...and controlling, and i've been denying my personality. she agrees that going back to school is a good project for me to direct for now. she also sees me treating this round of therapy as a project i'm directing, and thinks it's a good approach for me.
next week we're going to get a bit more specific on addressing my pregnancy anxiety in particular, but in the mean time she gave me tons of homework. when she learned i enjoy writing, she gave me several writing assignments, which i eagerly took, because there's nothing i like better than blabbering on about myself for pages and pages and pages.
as you well know.
*****
i've been a bad blogger this week, but i haven't had much to say (for me). i think i'm in a germination period. i have the beginnings of some new thoughts sprouting. expect new revelations, fantastic ravings, and maybe the meaning of life to appear in this blog in the coming weeks.
consider yourself warned.
posted by laura at 8:45 PM
6 Comments:
That germination you feel is your endometrial lining shedding. Don't worry, it'll pass.
'Warned"?! I'm looking forward to some revelations!
A friend of mine did art therapy when her marriage broke up. She spent a lot of time doing art projects as therapy homework and ended up feeling way better and having a beautiful art collection all of her own making. Every piece reminds her of how far she's come, and they make her house look fab too.
ooo, art projects! i wish i had been assigned some of those. i would like to fingerpaint my way to a less-anxious life!
i do remember, during the months of therapy i went through four or five years ago, regarding my dad and my depression and so forth, that i was extremely creative during that period. i made elaborate christmas cards. each christmas present wrapping was a unique design. i made coasters and blankets. i spent much time with calligraphic markers and water colors and hot glue guns. i miss that.
Revelations are good! And you may just get your creativity back. I'm still waiting, but I know it's there...
therapy has been a total revelation for me in the last 6 months - although i must confess i never do my homework assignments and the journal i'm supposed to be keeping is nonexistant. art projects are always an amazing outlet - its fun, therapeutic, and productive all at once. a great outlet - why wait for her to assign you an art project? assign yourself one!
its inspiring to read about your projects and healing journey. you really strike me as being a pretty freakin amazing kick ass womyn.
Looking forward to revelations and the meaning of life. Truly. You may be the one to figure it all out. Good Luck and don't wait for the therapist to tell you it's ok to finger paint!
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